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well time for a blog, prompted even more by robs moaning ;-)
a lot to tell, lets see how much i get through...

LOTS of games on the way/already here, big time for spending, which isn't great as i have no money :-(

sims2
i cannot WAIT for this game!! out this Friday, i bet i get busy again with work once i get this,
if not i can see myself getting lost in this a little (a lot!) ;-)
played it a little at the computer games show last week, i could have played it all day,
i cannot wait, mee is already sick of me talking about it ;-)

evil genius
played demo after marcs post, good fun, is like dungeon keeper,
to be honest its hard to see how good or bad this game will be as you don't really get loads to play with in the demo...
i think the traps, not available in the demo will play a large part in the game.
the most stupid thing about the game is the way your troops just let the good guys run around your base, i can see that being very annoying!

doom3
is SO SCARY, and like pitch black, you cannot see a thing.
i will have to play this more, but only in daylight, or at least not alone!
im sure a few comics will come from this!
rhys brought it over for me, he cant really play it either, but wanted to see if i could get further than him,
i couldn't, not within the time we gave it anyway, i had to take regular 'stress breaks' as it was too much!

half life 2
looking forward to this also, more than doom3 really, although i am more impressed with doom3 than i thought i would have been.
i was thinking of putting off buying these as i wasn't sure my pc could handle them, but as it turns out it can, which is cool.
still, anyway, it will be good

Wik And The Fable Of Souls
rhys recommended this, v cool would love to make a game like this
is a 'share wear' game, free download of demo here
you use your mouse to navigate wik to jump and use his tongue to swing off things and all sorts
v cool, if i had some money i would think about upgrading to full version, but i don't :-(

world of warcraft
this game looks GREAT, sadly time and money is going to be a problem for me and this game! (as with all MMORPG'S)
however, if i could afford it, and was going to play any mmorpg...this would be the one,

zoo tycoon
fun little game, me rob and rhys been getting into this, and with going to the zoo for rhys's b day it gives it even more depth ;-)
typical kinda game really, build your zoo, have shops, put animals in it, i guess the animals make it more fun,
worth checking out :-)

the movies
i don't think this is out till next year :-(
a sims type game but you get to direct your own movies, ANY kind of movies you like (i think)
and you go through time, so lets say you want to be a horror movie director
you would start in black and white, with a vampire movie, then maybe some zombie movies...
then slowly you might move into colour, have more special effects and the like...
sounds like good fun no? ;-)


church
an explanation
right, where to start...and what to say.
well, i am no longer part of the church i have attended for the last 3 years (or so)
Heathrow gateway church, part of the kingsnet network which i have been part of most of my life.
why did i leave?
>it felt right
>i was asked to choose
>the church has changed.

there has been a lot of changes in the kingsnet network, a lot of my friends and leaders have had a rough time,
been mistreated, and have had no support from the larger network.
now, this sentence above i only know what I've been told, i think with all things there is two sides to ever story,
but whatever the truth, things certainly haven't been the way they should.

since our pastor left hgc (Heathrow gateway church) has been under scrutiny of the larger network, and a lot of changes that have been pushed across the entire network of the churches have been particular badly received at hgc.
i don't think things have been well commutated or explained to us, again where the blame for this lies i couldn't tell you.

one thing the church has needed is a leader, and since the pastor left no one has been appointed to fill this position, this could be a cause of the problem.

so what do you have, a church of dwindling number all struggling to keep going towards goals set by an overall leadership that the church as a whole doesn't really see the vision behind.
the last few months have been hard. nearly every week the only people there were people running the meeting in some way,
that doesn't seem right.

well anyway, to try not to go on...

i went to a united meeting a few weeks ago, right after i found out my cell group leaders had left the church, and the church leader was speaking. at first i was angry, but as he gave his sermon i felt that what he is doing is the right thing, weather or not its the right thing for me...

then the following Friday he came to visit me, and again cutting a story short, he is pushing the "G12" vision across the entire church network, and is giving everyone in Heathrow the option to leave if they did not feel they are called to the "g12" vision.

I chose to leave, and i think a fair few people have.
personally i feel i have been called to play my music, which is a gift from God, i have a responsibility to do this, and have been given prophesies to do with this.

I cannot do this, see my girlfriend, see friends and do everything i would be expected to do on the "g12"

G12 vision isn't a million miles away from what we already do in the church with 'cell groups' however it would require weekly training, exams, leading a group of 12 once a week (and whenever they needed) and attending a group of 12.
so you see this could easy take 3 or 4 or more days a week.
and as much as i think the g12 is a good idea, i do not personally feel called to lead a group of people myself.
there is other callings within the church, something which this 'scheme' doesn't seem to include.

well anyway, i think that is some kind of explanation...
Mike who still attending the church says yesterdays meeting was good, which he was surprised with :-)
however i really don't know how many people are staying, as much as they may agree/disagree with the G12 i think it is the way people have been treated and the miss communication.

anyway, its over now.
I'm going to miss all those people, but i have a feeling it won't be too long before i see them again.


band is going well,
me and rob have continued to do acoustic venues in the area
we played at Windsor arts centre on Saturday and will be playing crosses corner again tonight,

we had a practice with the whole band on Saturday and again that went well,
we were worried neighbours would complain about the noise, but in fact they were fine with it,
and in fact a whole full of students opened windows to hear us more ;-)

that will do for post so far...
enough typing ;-)