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B|*ZZ4rD newsWednesday, 30 June 2004
Knackering Wednesday
ok quick post
went and sorted some stuff out today...
went around slough and Windsor looking for jobs and places to play
and on both Windsor was better
I found about 3 or 4 places in Windsor to play, some just acoustically, but some full band (woot!)
I then went along to running frog in Windsor and the main guy there talked with me for about 2 hours...
we (www.hollow.co.uk) were thinking about recording there
and I found out that joss stone, moloko and Beth orton have recorded there, among others...so that's good ;-)
oh and finally I ran into an old chum from a previous job,
very good to see em, :-)
argh my legs ache so much!
time to lay down some more!
went and sorted some stuff out today...
went around slough and Windsor looking for jobs and places to play
and on both Windsor was better
I found about 3 or 4 places in Windsor to play, some just acoustically, but some full band (woot!)
I then went along to running frog in Windsor and the main guy there talked with me for about 2 hours...
we (www.hollow.co.uk) were thinking about recording there
and I found out that joss stone, moloko and Beth orton have recorded there, among others...so that's good ;-)
oh and finally I ran into an old chum from a previous job,
very good to see em, :-)
argh my legs ache so much!
time to lay down some more!
Tuesday, 29 June 2004
Tuesday is random day
I'll be off to town tomorrow to sort out a few things, and soon enough I'll be busy with new web project...
which also means the last one has been done :-)
check it out
http://www.super-home-incomes.com
I'll have to update the websites page now...
also been having some very strange dreams of late...
including
'mothers eating there children, coz 'you can't get anything that tastes as good',
witches, friend of my gf's gonna crash in plane coz servants sabotage it..."
lots of nightmares, not very nice...
it might all have something to do with too much stuffed crust pizza,
and too much wheat has brought my mood down of late too I think...
so, trying to stop...
did Ryan http://www.pixieelf.co.uk/ a elf for his site...
check it out, erm, what else to post about, not sure :-)
oh, picked up jet set radio last night
GREAT game, but too a bit to get back into...
tried playing manhunt and judge dredd a bit too...
I swear I'm out of practice with mice now....
my GBA's influence...
stuck between a joystick and a mouse...
hmmm sounds like a good name for a site ;-)
oh pvp pvponline.com are doing a guest comic week, I (infinitemonkeyz.co.uk) might give it a good
Secret to a lasting marriage from hank http://www.jandrell.co.uk/
* Two times a week, we go to a nice restaurant, have a little wine, some good food and companionship. She goes Tuesdays, I go Fridays.
* We also sleep in separate beds. Her's is in Sydney and mine is in Melbourne.
* I take my wife everywhere, but she keeps finding her way back.
* I asked my wife where she wanted to go for our anniversary. "Somewhere I haven't been in a long time!" she said. So I suggested the kitchen.
* We always hold hands. If I let go, she shops.
* She has an electric blender, electric toaster and electric bread maker. Then she said, "There are too many gadgets and no place to sit down!". So I bought her an electric chair.
* Remember.... Marriage is the number one cause of divorce. Statistically, 100% of all divorces started with marriage.
* I married Miss Right. I just didn't know her first name was Always.
* I haven't spoken to my wife for 18 months. I don't like to interrupt her.
* The last fight was my fault. My wife asked, "What's on the TV?".... I said, "Dust!"
* In the beginning, God created earth and rested. Then God created man and rested. Then God created woman. Since then, neither God nor man has rested.
* Why do men die before their wives? 'Cause they want to'.
which also means the last one has been done :-)
check it out
http://www.super-home-incomes.com
I'll have to update the websites page now...
also been having some very strange dreams of late...
including
'mothers eating there children, coz 'you can't get anything that tastes as good',
witches, friend of my gf's gonna crash in plane coz servants sabotage it..."
lots of nightmares, not very nice...
it might all have something to do with too much stuffed crust pizza,
and too much wheat has brought my mood down of late too I think...
so, trying to stop...
did Ryan http://www.pixieelf.co.uk/ a elf for his site...
check it out, erm, what else to post about, not sure :-)
oh, picked up jet set radio last night
GREAT game, but too a bit to get back into...
tried playing manhunt and judge dredd a bit too...
I swear I'm out of practice with mice now....
my GBA's influence...
stuck between a joystick and a mouse...
hmmm sounds like a good name for a site ;-)
oh pvp pvponline.com are doing a guest comic week, I (infinitemonkeyz.co.uk) might give it a good
Secret to a lasting marriage from hank http://www.jandrell.co.uk/
* Two times a week, we go to a nice restaurant, have a little wine, some good food and companionship. She goes Tuesdays, I go Fridays.
* We also sleep in separate beds. Her's is in Sydney and mine is in Melbourne.
* I take my wife everywhere, but she keeps finding her way back.
* I asked my wife where she wanted to go for our anniversary. "Somewhere I haven't been in a long time!" she said. So I suggested the kitchen.
* We always hold hands. If I let go, she shops.
* She has an electric blender, electric toaster and electric bread maker. Then she said, "There are too many gadgets and no place to sit down!". So I bought her an electric chair.
* Remember.... Marriage is the number one cause of divorce. Statistically, 100% of all divorces started with marriage.
* I married Miss Right. I just didn't know her first name was Always.
* I haven't spoken to my wife for 18 months. I don't like to interrupt her.
* The last fight was my fault. My wife asked, "What's on the TV?".... I said, "Dust!"
* In the beginning, God created earth and rested. Then God created man and rested. Then God created woman. Since then, neither God nor man has rested.
* Why do men die before their wives? 'Cause they want to'.
Monday, 28 June 2004
Street Preaching
morning ya'll
hmmm is it ya'all or ya'll?
nice change today in that I don't have anything immediate to do.
well I do, but its not work, but give it a few days and I prolly will.
and besides lots of other stuff to make sure I get it done over next few days, but nice to be able to set the pace and relax a little,
speaking of which need breakfast.
one little thing to get off my chest.
street preachers....there has been some in slough, ive seen one all over London from Paddington to oxford street, but yesterday had some nut in a train station 'preaching' to anyone who wanted (or rather didn't want) to hear.
Don't get me wrong (before I even start) I am a Christian, I do believe Jesus is the son of God and miracles can be performed in his name, however I don't believe these people do any good, in fact they do a lot of bad.
the guy ive seen all over London, Paddington etc seems to be fully hypocritical, he even had a go at me and a mate when we said we were Christians.
'but your not living the life, out on the streets' he said
well funny enough we don't feel that is the best way to spread the news.
I do wonder how many people have even talked to him, let alone become Christians and _been supported by a local church_ (being a rather important part of it)
bottom line I think he is more condemning then any use.
and yesterday as I said some random guy started 'preaching'
some very odd theory though,
'we're all Jesus, your Jesus, your Jesus, your Jesus' he said pointing to people across the railtrack.
'wiggle your little finger in Jesus' was also a strange thing to say.
thing is, I know what effect this has, only bad as far as I can see.
I was with my gf, and this certainly didn't bless her, nor me, as I just felt embarrassed and wanted him to stop.
I personally feel a better way to 'reach people' is to try to live in God grace and be a good person, making clear you are a Christian and this is what you believe, but I don't condemn people, I don't have a go at people, I don't cram anything down peoples necks, I don't think that does any good.
I think my friends would feel they could talk to me should they be interested/want to know more, and in fact I know that's true as most of them have,
trouble is then some of them were let down by the church...
but then that's another point...
but even so I believe something has been sown and at least they know the truth.
well anyway, I think that's everything I want to say...
should you have questions or whatever email me sn00pyj@hotmail.com
I'd better get on...
hmmm is it ya'all or ya'll?
nice change today in that I don't have anything immediate to do.
well I do, but its not work, but give it a few days and I prolly will.
and besides lots of other stuff to make sure I get it done over next few days, but nice to be able to set the pace and relax a little,
speaking of which need breakfast.
one little thing to get off my chest.
street preachers....there has been some in slough, ive seen one all over London from Paddington to oxford street, but yesterday had some nut in a train station 'preaching' to anyone who wanted (or rather didn't want) to hear.
Don't get me wrong (before I even start) I am a Christian, I do believe Jesus is the son of God and miracles can be performed in his name, however I don't believe these people do any good, in fact they do a lot of bad.
the guy ive seen all over London, Paddington etc seems to be fully hypocritical, he even had a go at me and a mate when we said we were Christians.
'but your not living the life, out on the streets' he said
well funny enough we don't feel that is the best way to spread the news.
I do wonder how many people have even talked to him, let alone become Christians and _been supported by a local church_ (being a rather important part of it)
bottom line I think he is more condemning then any use.
and yesterday as I said some random guy started 'preaching'
some very odd theory though,
'we're all Jesus, your Jesus, your Jesus, your Jesus' he said pointing to people across the railtrack.
'wiggle your little finger in Jesus' was also a strange thing to say.
thing is, I know what effect this has, only bad as far as I can see.
I was with my gf, and this certainly didn't bless her, nor me, as I just felt embarrassed and wanted him to stop.
I personally feel a better way to 'reach people' is to try to live in God grace and be a good person, making clear you are a Christian and this is what you believe, but I don't condemn people, I don't have a go at people, I don't cram anything down peoples necks, I don't think that does any good.
I think my friends would feel they could talk to me should they be interested/want to know more, and in fact I know that's true as most of them have,
trouble is then some of them were let down by the church...
but then that's another point...
but even so I believe something has been sown and at least they know the truth.
well anyway, I think that's everything I want to say...
should you have questions or whatever email me sn00pyj@hotmail.com
I'd better get on...
Friday, 25 June 2004
Games Games Games
Spent the day with marc and Ryan playing games, mainly driver 3 and full spectrum warrior.
and in doing so I read a Nintendo mag...and here is what is coming...
and it is good!
paper mario
http://cube.ign.com/objects/573/573664.html
-GREAT cute 'manga' looking mario rpg!
spiderman 2 game
http://www.activision.com/microsite/spider-man/
-free roaming like GTA, but your spiderman!?!?!
Shinning force
http://www.shiningforcecentral.com/
-not really the link i wanted, but found out the shinning force game for GBA is the one i want!! :-)
NINTENDO DS!!!
http://www.nintendo.com/e3_2004/ds/index.jsp
The new nintendo hand held, looks great, more on it below
Full spectrum warrior
http://www.fullspectrumwarrior.co.uk/index.php
-as mentioned marc has this, great realstic order based army game
Advanced wars: Under Fire
http://www.dignews.com/preview.php?story_id=3644
-a game cube based advanced wars, sounds great, not yet, but hopefully...
so much good news! :-)
the DS looks so much better than i thought...
not only can it present graphics like the game cube but...
"With its two screens, Nintendo DS instantly shows its innovative face. But capabilities like a touch-screen input, voice recognition and wireless communication set it apart from every other game device, and again demonstrate Nintendo’s passion for groundbreaking originality.
Game players need only use their imagination to see how the DS promises to transform the portable game industry by changing the way gamers relate to their games – and each other. Two screens offer two perspectives on the action at once. The touch screen could make accessing items, moving characters or navigating menus as easy as a tap or drag on the screen. Voice recognition could let players simply tell the game what they want it to do. Chat software will let users transmit text messages, handwriting and even drawings to one another. And wireless functions could link players in the same room – or across the country. The unique features of the Nintendo DS hold a wellspring of potential for the future. Game players will be wowed."
prolly more ive missed out, but also doesnt look as large as i first thought
can play GBA games!!! (big yay!) and with the touch screen means that the new warioware will have all kinds of great stuff...
anyhoo, should go to bed!
but finally...
Big Brother, so Vanessa is out,
better than Dan out :-)
however she got boo'd :-|
eek! not very nice
oh, jason looks so sad :-/
and in doing so I read a Nintendo mag...and here is what is coming...
and it is good!
paper mario
http://cube.ign.com/objects/573/573664.html
-GREAT cute 'manga' looking mario rpg!
spiderman 2 game
http://www.activision.com/microsite/spider-man/
-free roaming like GTA, but your spiderman!?!?!
Shinning force
http://www.shiningforcecentral.com/
-not really the link i wanted, but found out the shinning force game for GBA is the one i want!! :-)
NINTENDO DS!!!
http://www.nintendo.com/e3_2004/ds/index.jsp
The new nintendo hand held, looks great, more on it below
Full spectrum warrior
http://www.fullspectrumwarrior.co.uk/index.php
-as mentioned marc has this, great realstic order based army game
Advanced wars: Under Fire
http://www.dignews.com/preview.php?story_id=3644
-a game cube based advanced wars, sounds great, not yet, but hopefully...
so much good news! :-)
the DS looks so much better than i thought...
not only can it present graphics like the game cube but...
"With its two screens, Nintendo DS instantly shows its innovative face. But capabilities like a touch-screen input, voice recognition and wireless communication set it apart from every other game device, and again demonstrate Nintendo’s passion for groundbreaking originality.
Game players need only use their imagination to see how the DS promises to transform the portable game industry by changing the way gamers relate to their games – and each other. Two screens offer two perspectives on the action at once. The touch screen could make accessing items, moving characters or navigating menus as easy as a tap or drag on the screen. Voice recognition could let players simply tell the game what they want it to do. Chat software will let users transmit text messages, handwriting and even drawings to one another. And wireless functions could link players in the same room – or across the country. The unique features of the Nintendo DS hold a wellspring of potential for the future. Game players will be wowed."
prolly more ive missed out, but also doesnt look as large as i first thought
can play GBA games!!! (big yay!) and with the touch screen means that the new warioware will have all kinds of great stuff...
anyhoo, should go to bed!
but finally...
Big Brother, so Vanessa is out,
better than Dan out :-)
however she got boo'd :-|
eek! not very nice
oh, jason looks so sad :-/
Thursday, 24 June 2004
hypnotism for flies?
Seems like
Tuesday, 22 June 2004
Stuff
some random links i found of interest...
new avp movie trailer
fight on penny arcade and another web comic
here
here
and here
metallica movie Documentary?
new avp movie trailer
fight on penny arcade and another web comic
here
here
and here
metallica movie Documentary?
New nunchaku gun?
Monday, 21 June 2004
OMW
look at Rooney go!
Monday
morning,
another bright and sunny day in front of a computer trying to wake up and putting up shaving.
im a little preoccupied this morning, but i wont go into that..
working on the website been doing, hopefully get it finished today or soon...
again i wont go into that right now anyway...
man, there isn't a lot i can say is there...
oh apart from..Happy Fathers Day Dad
i miss you so much
another bright and sunny day in front of a computer trying to wake up and putting up shaving.
im a little preoccupied this morning, but i wont go into that..
working on the website been doing, hopefully get it finished today or soon...
again i wont go into that right now anyway...
man, there isn't a lot i can say is there...
oh apart from..Happy Fathers Day Dad
i miss you so much
Thursday, 17 June 2004
More more more big brother
More more big brother
Tuesday, 15 June 2004
More Big Brother
ug long day, been ok tho :-)
will post more tomo, just thought i'd share of of the latest bb maddness!
house mates start to guess about the bedsit
Vanessa gets mad
shell starts to crack with lack of cigarettes
Stuart and Marco challlege BB to a game of 5 stones
Emma tries to date BB
and finally, and most shocking.....
MICHELLE AND EMMA ARE BACK IN THE HOUSE TOMORROW!!!! 10PM CH4!!!!
im so hooked :-\
will post more tomo, just thought i'd share of of the latest bb maddness!
house mates start to guess about the bedsit
Vanessa gets mad
shell starts to crack with lack of cigarettes
Stuart and Marco challlege BB to a game of 5 stones
Emma tries to date BB
and finally, and most shocking.....
MICHELLE AND EMMA ARE BACK IN THE HOUSE TOMORROW!!!! 10PM CH4!!!!
im so hooked :-\
Monday, 14 June 2004
Monday
morning, yawn, another late start I'm afraid
not much to post on, probably lots to say, I've just forgotten it...
watched the England France match last night,
not really a football fan at all, but I can relate to something if I get involved,
and when its your country playing, or a team you like you can get involved...
disappointing result though yesterday :-(
lets hope they can pull it together for the rest of the season.
as I mentioned before got a few possibly bits of work in the pipe line
which is great news, but as some of them might be big earners I will prolly need to go see the tax man
which is something I should stop talking about and just do!
but anyway, more on work as it gets completed most likely...
I'd better get on, but I'll leave you with some comics,
some good garfield and dilbert of late, check em out...
http://www.dilbert.com/comics/dilbert/archive/
http://www.garfield.com/comics/comics_todays.html
not much to post on, probably lots to say, I've just forgotten it...
watched the England France match last night,
not really a football fan at all, but I can relate to something if I get involved,
and when its your country playing, or a team you like you can get involved...
disappointing result though yesterday :-(
lets hope they can pull it together for the rest of the season.
as I mentioned before got a few possibly bits of work in the pipe line
which is great news, but as some of them might be big earners I will prolly need to go see the tax man
which is something I should stop talking about and just do!
but anyway, more on work as it gets completed most likely...
I'd better get on, but I'll leave you with some comics,
some good garfield and dilbert of late, check em out...
http://www.dilbert.com/comics/dilbert/archive/
http://www.garfield.com/comics/comics_todays.html
Wednesday, 9 June 2004
Big Brother
more outbursts!
http://bigbrother.channel4.com/bigbrother/news/newsstory.jsp?id=5683
I am starting to like Jason more, seems to be a nice chap..
http://bigbrother.channel4.com/bigbrother/news/newsstory.jsp?id=5684
take about just leave it alone Emma!
More good news, even more web work might be coming my way :-)
all good timing, thank you lord :-)
Timing couldn't be better really...
http://bigbrother.channel4.com/bigbrother/news/newsstory.jsp?id=5683
I am starting to like Jason more, seems to be a nice chap..
http://bigbrother.channel4.com/bigbrother/news/newsstory.jsp?id=5684
take about just leave it alone Emma!
More good news, even more web work might be coming my way :-)
all good timing, thank you lord :-)
Timing couldn't be better really...
New StrongBad!
Busy
got some more web design work...
not a huge project, but will keep me busy for time being,
some pics from hank that amused me
Chinese take away
4 Stages of playing outside your gender in a online game
that one goes out to ryan!
not a huge project, but will keep me busy for time being,
some pics from hank that amused me
Chinese take away
4 Stages of playing outside your gender in a online game
that one goes out to ryan!
Monday, 7 June 2004
Desk
Hazzar! I have a desk!
already my back and neck hurt less and I'm more 'productive'....
speaking of which I've uploaded more 'exclusive' downtown pics...
http://www.blizz4rd.co.uk/downtown.htm
already my back and neck hurt less and I'm more 'productive'....
speaking of which I've uploaded more 'exclusive' downtown pics...
http://www.blizz4rd.co.uk/downtown.htm
Old skool gamez
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/pacman/pacman.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/simon/simon.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/spaceinvaders/spaceinvaders.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/frogger/frogger.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/moonpatrol/moonpatrol.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/tetris2/tetris2.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/tetris/tetris.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/duckhunt/duckhunt.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/pong/pong2.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/asteroids/asteroids.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/starcastle/starcastle.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/simon/simon.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/spaceinvaders/spaceinvaders.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/frogger/frogger.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/moonpatrol/moonpatrol.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/tetris2/tetris2.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/tetris/tetris.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/duckhunt/duckhunt.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/pong/pong2.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/asteroids/asteroids.swf
http://www.80smusiclyrics.com/games/starcastle/starcastle.swf
Sunday, 6 June 2004
Even more
changes
ok have started to 'apply' the look around the entire site
ive done as much as im gonna do for tonight
so everything but not work, actually i dont think there are any problems but there you go
not everything fits in yet, but there you go
far too tired these days...and i hate this hot weather! :-((((
ok have started to 'apply' the look around the entire site
ive done as much as im gonna do for tonight
so everything but not work, actually i dont think there are any problems but there you go
not everything fits in yet, but there you go
far too tired these days...and i hate this hot weather! :-((((
Changes changes
ok few minor changes to the css for this front page
hopefully should be little easier to view now :-)
let me know your comments on the look
i think i will make some changes to make rest of site fit in with this....
then on to meesmess..then more here, then infinite monkeyz, then learn flash, then cantonese, then take over the world with my songs....
man, i have a lot on my plate! :-|
hopefully should be little easier to view now :-)
let me know your comments on the look
i think i will make some changes to make rest of site fit in with this....
then on to meesmess..then more here, then infinite monkeyz, then learn flash, then cantonese, then take over the world with my songs....
man, i have a lot on my plate! :-|
Coffee comics
...are the best :-)
right tired and its sunday, but feel like getting something done
got few minor changes to do here, so i guess might get on to that....
hmmm maybe....who knows, well ill be sure to let you know ;-)
right tired and its sunday, but feel like getting something done
got few minor changes to do here, so i guess might get on to that....
hmmm maybe....who knows, well ill be sure to let you know ;-)
Friday, 4 June 2004
Big brother
Kitten is out ;-)
Thursday, 3 June 2004
Bible test
Bad day
weird day
seem to be in some kind of mood,
not very nice
guess tired and not feeling 100%
hopefully seeing mee tomo, but that's not certain yet,
I guess that doesn't help, although now it is certain, and I'm glad
why cant I just enjoy my time I have ...I guess I know why...
I guess I want more, I guess I worry about money
I know things will be ok, but that doesn't stop me worrying a little
my mum doesn't help, I feel like I have to justify everything I do to a degree
money is becoming short, so I know I will have to do something soon..
but I guess part of me doesn't just want to fall back into routine...
my mum also worries about this a lot I think, when she probably shouldn't
there's a lot going on there really, most of it drives me crazy, but I can sympathies I guess...
it is hard..
to a degree im her crutch, I get moaned at, I get her worries, I get her problems, I get asked to help out
there is no escape, I am her son, she mothers me too much, she tells me about other situations that either I don't want to know about or cant help, like she cant talk about dad without it effecting me, but i try to not let it show, so she can get it out...but it hurts...she cant cope, I don't know what to tell her,
we talked today, and kinda cleared the air, but in the same breath as sorting some stuff out, she makes other stuff bad.
some stuff I wont go into, but she says a certain situation is bad, and she doesn't understand why its like that...
and what she doesn't realise is she is creating the same situation here...
its funny, I think dad held her back from saying a lot...
now I get it all...
and I just go quiet...what else am I gonna do....
teeth are a lot better, I was gonna post about what happened in the hospital, maybe I will if I have time
saw the pixies last night BIG THANKS to Phil! delays supported them, it was great
I must buy the delays album, when I have money!
the pixies were SO heavy in parts.
I almost felt guilty being there as they were rather excusive gigs..4 sold out dates in Brixton..
the pixies did remind me its ok to be heavy, so ok...I will be ;-)
website
asianplay is finally finished (my part anyway) should be live July 17th, or there abouts
will be good when this one gets put to bed,
approached someone else about a website today, so maybe/hopefully have another job on the way...
that would be very good
money is getting a bit short...hopefully a few things will come through,
but sadly I think I will just have to get something to keep me going for a bit...
I donor, as I said I don't want to fall into a routine...but well...bottom line I need money to live...
band is stuff is going well
but im so impatient, I guess coz have been thinking alot about what I want to get out of this
and the fact I want to try and DO this!
it raises many questions...what do I want out of the band...what am I really 'called' to do..
a lot to think about, a lot I want to get clear..
but bottom line I just want to go play my music, sing my heart out...
I hope this leads to being able to live off of it ...yeah...I guess that is what I am aiming for..
I don't want to be famous...certainly not for fame itself...far too much hassle...
trouble is of course I imagine most record companies are going to try and push things as far as they can go..
so I guess I will always be aiming for that...no matter if I want that or not...
if I want to be able to live making music....
ok, enough on that for now...
it is hard work
church, another long subject...things are ok, its still a bit stressed, but still love the ppl and the church..
so just hanging on in there...
ok, enough for now..
seem to be in some kind of mood,
not very nice
guess tired and not feeling 100%
hopefully seeing mee tomo, but that's not certain yet,
I guess that doesn't help, although now it is certain, and I'm glad
why cant I just enjoy my time I have ...I guess I know why...
I guess I want more, I guess I worry about money
I know things will be ok, but that doesn't stop me worrying a little
my mum doesn't help, I feel like I have to justify everything I do to a degree
money is becoming short, so I know I will have to do something soon..
but I guess part of me doesn't just want to fall back into routine...
my mum also worries about this a lot I think, when she probably shouldn't
there's a lot going on there really, most of it drives me crazy, but I can sympathies I guess...
it is hard..
to a degree im her crutch, I get moaned at, I get her worries, I get her problems, I get asked to help out
there is no escape, I am her son, she mothers me too much, she tells me about other situations that either I don't want to know about or cant help, like she cant talk about dad without it effecting me, but i try to not let it show, so she can get it out...but it hurts...she cant cope, I don't know what to tell her,
we talked today, and kinda cleared the air, but in the same breath as sorting some stuff out, she makes other stuff bad.
some stuff I wont go into, but she says a certain situation is bad, and she doesn't understand why its like that...
and what she doesn't realise is she is creating the same situation here...
its funny, I think dad held her back from saying a lot...
now I get it all...
and I just go quiet...what else am I gonna do....
teeth are a lot better, I was gonna post about what happened in the hospital, maybe I will if I have time
saw the pixies last night BIG THANKS to Phil! delays supported them, it was great
I must buy the delays album, when I have money!
the pixies were SO heavy in parts.
I almost felt guilty being there as they were rather excusive gigs..4 sold out dates in Brixton..
the pixies did remind me its ok to be heavy, so ok...I will be ;-)
website
asianplay is finally finished (my part anyway) should be live July 17th, or there abouts
will be good when this one gets put to bed,
approached someone else about a website today, so maybe/hopefully have another job on the way...
that would be very good
money is getting a bit short...hopefully a few things will come through,
but sadly I think I will just have to get something to keep me going for a bit...
I donor, as I said I don't want to fall into a routine...but well...bottom line I need money to live...
band is stuff is going well
but im so impatient, I guess coz have been thinking alot about what I want to get out of this
and the fact I want to try and DO this!
it raises many questions...what do I want out of the band...what am I really 'called' to do..
a lot to think about, a lot I want to get clear..
but bottom line I just want to go play my music, sing my heart out...
I hope this leads to being able to live off of it ...yeah...I guess that is what I am aiming for..
I don't want to be famous...certainly not for fame itself...far too much hassle...
trouble is of course I imagine most record companies are going to try and push things as far as they can go..
so I guess I will always be aiming for that...no matter if I want that or not...
if I want to be able to live making music....
ok, enough on that for now...
it is hard work
church, another long subject...things are ok, its still a bit stressed, but still love the ppl and the church..
so just hanging on in there...
ok, enough for now..
Busking
Thursday
so far so depressing...
will post later, but few quickies...
listened to pj more and sure enough it is growing on me...
some of the lyrics seem a bit weak, some almost 'my first song ryming'
like sad and bad...is a bit odd ;-/
Big Bro, what you reap is what you sow kitten
and finally for now...
Mee speaks out about several films she has seen
sensational reviews here
to quote:
"Mona Lisa Smile
Mona Lisa might have been smiling... but I wasn't."
aww gotta love her ;-) well I do anyway
will post later, but few quickies...
listened to pj more and sure enough it is growing on me...
some of the lyrics seem a bit weak, some almost 'my first song ryming'
like sad and bad...is a bit odd ;-/
Big Bro, what you reap is what you sow kitten
and finally for now...
Mee speaks out about several films she has seen
sensational reviews here
to quote:
"Mona Lisa Smile
Mona Lisa might have been smiling... but I wasn't."
aww gotta love her ;-) well I do anyway
Wednesday, 2 June 2004
WOW
Game over
new tv on trouble (in uk) by maker of Simpson's
its about live for computer games characters after the game is overhttp://www.gameover.tv/
its about live for computer games characters after the game is overhttp://www.gameover.tv/
Right
a few quick posts before I get stuck into working on asianplay again!
Bought new pj Harvey, its good, but it needs to grow on me more, and im sure it will...
I instantly love 'who the fuck' and 'the letter' because these are return to form for pj.
hard guitar and the kind of song you have to get up and move to...just like the 1st 2 albums...
having said that there was stuff on her last album that was like that too.
the rest of the album is either quiet acoustic type stuff or a few slightly dancy, all good but I need to be more familiar with it I think...
trust me in a few days/a week I will be posting again to say ITS GREAT!!!!
/me stands up and starts pj cd again....
saw the new Harry potter yesterday
it was a lot darker, so I enjoyed that
mee said it missed parts of book at start...
and I would say it ended abruptly...
and it led us to have a mind splitting talk about time travel :-|
but apart from that I loved the 'death' looking dementors and werewolf ;-)
oh and amazing news! :-)
Tycho from penny arcade
I mailed him about alien swarm and I think he must have seen on slashdot coz he said he played over weekend and it was 'bad ass!' :-))
I then replied saying take a look at my comic ;-) (cheeky I know)
his comments were
'You've got some funny comics there, I really liked that cat.'
:-D
I'm star struck! :-D
Off to see the Pixies tonight :-)
they are
doing a few live shows in London, and it looks like they might make tonight's show into a live album! :-D
"
PIXIES TO RELEASE LONDON SHOWS AS LIVE ALBUMS
This week's NME cover stars PIXIES are to record all four of their comeback LONDON shows next week (June 2-5) and make them available as limited edition live albums.
The band recorded and manufactured 15 different live albums on their recent North American tour, each one selling out.
The 'Live at Brixton Academy' CDs will go on sale at the beginning of next week exclusively at disclive.com, and fans will have two options for purchase.
The first will be a double-CD package, individually numbered and complete with artwork unique to the particular show. These will be mailed to buyers by June 21. The second option will be via a new DiscLive technology called NetBurn_, where the customer can - within three hours of the desired concert - burn the music directly onto a CD.
Only 1,500 of each concert will be manufactured. Buyers will be limited to two copies each. In addition, fans who purchase the double-CD package will be given a password to allow them to use NetBurn_ in order to burn the concert onto a blank CD, at no extra cost. The NetBurn_-only option will be limited to 1,000 burns for each concert.
As previously reported on NME.COM, a club night centred on Pixies classics is to take place in London this weekend (May 29) to celebrate the legendary band's return to live action after an absence of 12 years.
'Death To The Pixies' takes place on Saturday at Sahara Nights, Pentonville Road, just two minutes walk from King's Cross St Pancras underground station. It's just £4 to get in, and the club runs from 9pm-3am.
Special guest DJs from Beggars/4AD, VH1 and NME will be playing Pixies favourites throughout the night, as well as other stuff they love."
right I think that's all to blog for now...
been watching big brother and getting into it...but typed enough for now, time to get on with some work!
Bought new pj Harvey, its good, but it needs to grow on me more, and im sure it will...
I instantly love 'who the fuck' and 'the letter' because these are return to form for pj.
hard guitar and the kind of song you have to get up and move to...just like the 1st 2 albums...
having said that there was stuff on her last album that was like that too.
the rest of the album is either quiet acoustic type stuff or a few slightly dancy, all good but I need to be more familiar with it I think...
trust me in a few days/a week I will be posting again to say ITS GREAT!!!!
/me stands up and starts pj cd again....
saw the new Harry potter yesterday
it was a lot darker, so I enjoyed that
mee said it missed parts of book at start...
and I would say it ended abruptly...
and it led us to have a mind splitting talk about time travel :-|
but apart from that I loved the 'death' looking dementors and werewolf ;-)
oh and amazing news! :-)
Tycho from penny arcade
I mailed him about alien swarm and I think he must have seen on slashdot coz he said he played over weekend and it was 'bad ass!' :-))
I then replied saying take a look at my comic ;-) (cheeky I know)
his comments were
'You've got some funny comics there, I really liked that cat.'
:-D
I'm star struck! :-D
Off to see the Pixies tonight :-)
they are
doing a few live shows in London, and it looks like they might make tonight's show into a live album! :-D
"
PIXIES TO RELEASE LONDON SHOWS AS LIVE ALBUMS
This week's NME cover stars PIXIES are to record all four of their comeback LONDON shows next week (June 2-5) and make them available as limited edition live albums.
The band recorded and manufactured 15 different live albums on their recent North American tour, each one selling out.
The 'Live at Brixton Academy' CDs will go on sale at the beginning of next week exclusively at disclive.com, and fans will have two options for purchase.
The first will be a double-CD package, individually numbered and complete with artwork unique to the particular show. These will be mailed to buyers by June 21. The second option will be via a new DiscLive technology called NetBurn_, where the customer can - within three hours of the desired concert - burn the music directly onto a CD.
Only 1,500 of each concert will be manufactured. Buyers will be limited to two copies each. In addition, fans who purchase the double-CD package will be given a password to allow them to use NetBurn_ in order to burn the concert onto a blank CD, at no extra cost. The NetBurn_-only option will be limited to 1,000 burns for each concert.
As previously reported on NME.COM, a club night centred on Pixies classics is to take place in London this weekend (May 29) to celebrate the legendary band's return to live action after an absence of 12 years.
'Death To The Pixies' takes place on Saturday at Sahara Nights, Pentonville Road, just two minutes walk from King's Cross St Pancras underground station. It's just £4 to get in, and the club runs from 9pm-3am.
Special guest DJs from Beggars/4AD, VH1 and NME will be playing Pixies favourites throughout the night, as well as other stuff they love."
right I think that's all to blog for now...
been watching big brother and getting into it...but typed enough for now, time to get on with some work!
