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B|*ZZ4rD newsFriday, 31 October 2003
Bad dream
I had a dream two of my guitars got broken :-(
necks snapped clean off :-(
I slept in this morning, so had lots of dream time..all sorts of odd stuff
anyway, its over now, and although I didn't check my guitars were alright im sure they are ;-)
necks snapped clean off :-(
I slept in this morning, so had lots of dream time..all sorts of odd stuff
anyway, its over now, and although I didn't check my guitars were alright im sure they are ;-)
Tuesday, 28 October 2003
Coff coff coff
Sunday, 26 October 2003
Ftp gone wrong
something very weird is going on in the world of ftp, not just here, but everywhere
anyway...its getting late, toast is being made
bed seems like a warm place to be
anyway...its getting late, toast is being made
bed seems like a warm place to be
Saturday, 25 October 2003
B day Kill Bill Comics and DIM!
RAR it's my birthday, and i'll cry coz no one turned up..
hmm no wait thats not how it goes...
ANYWAY, had a good day, saw Kill Bill, and i'd just like to say thank you Quentin ;-)
you have pretty much made MY film....
im sure i will mention more about it later, but anyway
also got to check out the new HUGE forbidden planet! bought....a few things ;-)
might take photos of some of em and post em here, so watch out ;-))
ermmm also went for dim sum...yummmm!
anyway, getting tired so will stop posting now...
listening to the new sting, got some really good songs :-)
hmm no wait thats not how it goes...
ANYWAY, had a good day, saw Kill Bill, and i'd just like to say thank you Quentin ;-)
you have pretty much made MY film....
im sure i will mention more about it later, but anyway
also got to check out the new HUGE forbidden planet! bought....a few things ;-)
might take photos of some of em and post em here, so watch out ;-))
ermmm also went for dim sum...yummmm!
anyway, getting tired so will stop posting now...
listening to the new sting, got some really good songs :-)
Thursday, 23 October 2003
Red vs Blue
Wednesday, 22 October 2003
don't watch too much strong bad or else EVERYTHING starts to sounds like him...
your brother...your friends...your girlfriend..
i mean, your just asking for pain..
so anyway, until next week,
crapfully yours
Strong bad....I mean Jo
Night zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
your brother...your friends...your girlfriend..
i mean, your just asking for pain..
so anyway, until next week,
crapfully yours
Strong bad....I mean Jo
Night zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Tuesday, 21 October 2003
Stop it blogger
some weird stuff going on with blogger
New songs
had a bit of a cold last few days, feeling better today
but feeling crappy in other ways :-(
feeling bit dark and pointless
done a fair bit today, but never feels enough, all feels a bit pointless and hard to start anything...
anyway, should be back to work tomorrow, which im sure will be better for me than sitting around at home..
but doesnt really feel like it at the moment..
i think partly my dads death has made some things seem very pointless,
working where i do is one of them..
but working keeps me sane..
so what am i to do.
also ive noticed ive been a bit more sensive over a few things of late, this is because its getting close to my birthday on saturday...
not the usual oh i hate getting old problem, but more i want things done my way..
i always seem to get like this around my b day...
is odd, but i still cant understand some peoples choices of late..
anyway, im sure ill just sulk about it...
ok, so finally got around to putting up some new songs and poems..
a good mix of stuff here:
with a crown
this love
i can't explain
metal box
sword is juctice
not job here
and ill tell you what is also annoying about being ill, is not being able to sing with a soar throat when you know it will make you feel better! :-(
but feeling crappy in other ways :-(
feeling bit dark and pointless
done a fair bit today, but never feels enough, all feels a bit pointless and hard to start anything...
anyway, should be back to work tomorrow, which im sure will be better for me than sitting around at home..
but doesnt really feel like it at the moment..
i think partly my dads death has made some things seem very pointless,
working where i do is one of them..
but working keeps me sane..
so what am i to do.
also ive noticed ive been a bit more sensive over a few things of late, this is because its getting close to my birthday on saturday...
not the usual oh i hate getting old problem, but more i want things done my way..
i always seem to get like this around my b day...
is odd, but i still cant understand some peoples choices of late..
anyway, im sure ill just sulk about it...
ok, so finally got around to putting up some new songs and poems..
a good mix of stuff here:
with a crown
this love
i can't explain
metal box
sword is juctice
not job here
and ill tell you what is also annoying about being ill, is not being able to sing with a soar throat when you know it will make you feel better! :-(
Saturday, 18 October 2003
What a joker
right, ok finally sorted a folder to upload pics to using blogger, nice little funtion :-)
so thought should post this nice little photo :-)
ok well its saturday, and keep thinking about what have to do so not actually doing much ;-|
funny life huh?
Tuesday, 14 October 2003
so much to say, so much to do, but energy running out.
I just realised I AM my department again ;-)
my team leader is no where to be seen, I guess in some meeting
one guy has left for the day
and the other person is off to the docs.
two guys are downstairs on routers I.e away from the phone...
so that leaves little old me...needing the loo ;-)
anyway, yeah a lot going on at the moment, so many thought never get the time to catch
busy in all parts of life...need a break tonight, need rest...
lets hope no one throws themselves in front of the train again on the way home to slow me down!
I was stuck on the train for 2 hours yesterday
anyway, almost time to go...
I just realised I AM my department again ;-)
my team leader is no where to be seen, I guess in some meeting
one guy has left for the day
and the other person is off to the docs.
two guys are downstairs on routers I.e away from the phone...
so that leaves little old me...needing the loo ;-)
anyway, yeah a lot going on at the moment, so many thought never get the time to catch
busy in all parts of life...need a break tonight, need rest...
lets hope no one throws themselves in front of the train again on the way home to slow me down!
I was stuck on the train for 2 hours yesterday
anyway, almost time to go...
Friday, 10 October 2003
Thursday, 9 October 2003
ok, well again about time I updated this...
sooo much to say, so little time.
so yeah I made it back to work, and it has helped.
Monday was really very hard!
I had things to do in the morning, but the afternoon brought me down very far very hard.
basically my dad's death became more reality, and it hit me hard.
I felt dark alone and drowning in tears and I guess partly self pity, as much as the pain of having a dad shaped hole in my heart.
argh I have just lost half of my blog! :-(
anyway, should get on..
just to say thank you to those who a>comforted me and b>shook me out of it.
I think I needed both, even though it was hard to see at the time, I think 'sink or swim' is right
I doubt I would have stayed in that state too long...but it was dark and far too familiar.
so thank you guys
anyway, better get on...
will try to update the site this weekend (always say that!)
at least put up some photos from the weekend :-)
oh and finally...Ryan, you are a nutter
ME:
"isn't about time YOU updated YOUR site ;-)"
RYAN:
"*grumblegrumblegrumble.not.had.time.to.do.it.grumblegrumblegrumble*
Hehe
Someday I will...
Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but soon, and for the rest of my life!
How dooo's it buddy?"
ME:
"he he he same here! :-)
yeaaaaaaaaah life is like a bucket of cheese
easier to get on when your back at work "
RYAN:
"Hmm, I'm still trying to imagine a bucket of cheese without vomiting.
It really is a horrific thought if you put your mind to it, I mean, a full bucket of cheese.
Try to picture yourself being forced to eat it, someone could be standing behind you, with their foot in the back of your neck, shoving your face into the bucket, any unsuspecting passer-by, may turn their head, and see in the bucket, a 'Jo face' imprint in the cheese, maybe a little nibble from out of the edge of the cheese. I can imagine the scene, the setting is a dark alley, maybe New York, possible Boston, it has to be a grimy alleyway, pollution and dirt everywhere, Chicago may work as a substitute, you are on your knees with the bucket, but now, the guy forcing you to eat the cheese has a shotgun, and he is threatening to shoot you if you don't eat ALL the cheese!! There could be loud music, growing to a crescendo as you make your way through the bucket, and at the climax of the scene, you could be chucking your guts up everywhere, with semi-processed bits of cheese coming out of your nose, and maybe hitting and sticking to the camera, I can pretty much hear the clear sounds of bile being forced up your throat by the constant wretching of a man who has eaten far too much cheese, and now is ridding himself of the vile elements of evil!
Hmm, Maybe I have been eating too much cheese already today!
I'm really considering writing a full book about this bucket of cheese?
I think it could be a winner!"
sooo much to say, so little time.
so yeah I made it back to work, and it has helped.
Monday was really very hard!
I had things to do in the morning, but the afternoon brought me down very far very hard.
basically my dad's death became more reality, and it hit me hard.
I felt dark alone and drowning in tears and I guess partly self pity, as much as the pain of having a dad shaped hole in my heart.
argh I have just lost half of my blog! :-(
anyway, should get on..
just to say thank you to those who a>comforted me and b>shook me out of it.
I think I needed both, even though it was hard to see at the time, I think 'sink or swim' is right
I doubt I would have stayed in that state too long...but it was dark and far too familiar.
so thank you guys
anyway, better get on...
will try to update the site this weekend (always say that!)
at least put up some photos from the weekend :-)
oh and finally...Ryan, you are a nutter
ME:
"isn't about time YOU updated YOUR site ;-)"
RYAN:
"*grumblegrumblegrumble.not.had.time.to.do.it.grumblegrumblegrumble*
Hehe
Someday I will...
Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but soon, and for the rest of my life!
How dooo's it buddy?"
ME:
"he he he same here! :-)
yeaaaaaaaaah life is like a bucket of cheese
easier to get on when your back at work "
RYAN:
"Hmm, I'm still trying to imagine a bucket of cheese without vomiting.
It really is a horrific thought if you put your mind to it, I mean, a full bucket of cheese.
Try to picture yourself being forced to eat it, someone could be standing behind you, with their foot in the back of your neck, shoving your face into the bucket, any unsuspecting passer-by, may turn their head, and see in the bucket, a 'Jo face' imprint in the cheese, maybe a little nibble from out of the edge of the cheese. I can imagine the scene, the setting is a dark alley, maybe New York, possible Boston, it has to be a grimy alleyway, pollution and dirt everywhere, Chicago may work as a substitute, you are on your knees with the bucket, but now, the guy forcing you to eat the cheese has a shotgun, and he is threatening to shoot you if you don't eat ALL the cheese!! There could be loud music, growing to a crescendo as you make your way through the bucket, and at the climax of the scene, you could be chucking your guts up everywhere, with semi-processed bits of cheese coming out of your nose, and maybe hitting and sticking to the camera, I can pretty much hear the clear sounds of bile being forced up your throat by the constant wretching of a man who has eaten far too much cheese, and now is ridding himself of the vile elements of evil!
Hmm, Maybe I have been eating too much cheese already today!
I'm really considering writing a full book about this bucket of cheese?
I think it could be a winner!"
Tuesday, 7 October 2003
Monday, 6 October 2003
ok, hard to know what to say.
had a great weekend away with the church, and will post some photos later maybe.
but i feel so lost at the moment.
the death of my father is finally sinking in, so i feel unstable and not sure what to do with myself.
but at this point i have had 2 weeks off work, so i think i will try to come in tomorrow. i guess i just have to do it, because i'm never going to want to go back.
also a lot of possible changes going on at the moment, i wont go into them all yet, but it is certainly a time for change.
anyway, need to get dressed and unpack from weekend.
better get on for now..
had a great weekend away with the church, and will post some photos later maybe.
but i feel so lost at the moment.
the death of my father is finally sinking in, so i feel unstable and not sure what to do with myself.
but at this point i have had 2 weeks off work, so i think i will try to come in tomorrow. i guess i just have to do it, because i'm never going to want to go back.
also a lot of possible changes going on at the moment, i wont go into them all yet, but it is certainly a time for change.
anyway, need to get dressed and unpack from weekend.
better get on for now..
Thursday, 2 October 2003
right then, quick update
it's Thursday, not that long before I need to head into London to see Maria for tonight
I've slept in a lot this morning, feels good to do, but I also feel I've wasted half the day, still not feeling great really
still sporting a cold :-(
and now my mum has gone out and I'm home alone I really not too sure what to do with myself.
well, a big THANK YOU to everyone who made it for my fathers funeral yesterday, there was such a big turn out people filled the upstairs of the church AND people were still standing.
it really shows what an impression he made on people
here is the order of service if you are interested, it includes a few things that weren't read on the day. it's only a text file at the moment, but if i get a chance i will try to compress the 2mb full version!
of course everything seems trivia when compared to things like this,
but ive bought a fair amount of music over last two months and thought it was time I shared and recommended
muse - absolution
good stuff, I thought I might have had enough of muse, as its starting to sound the same,
which I guess it is...but it's still good ;-)
some very nice riffs, which I would like to be fused more into the songs, rather than 'ok now we play the riff a few times'
but anyway overall still have a lot of talent and is interesting, got a feeling muse might be around to stay
uncle - never never land
more 'dancy' beats than previous albums I have got, but is still good.
haven't really looked into it, but it seems like uncle has worked with one guy this time, rather than a lot of different famous people
I could be wrong of course.
anyway, is good, not as good as last album really. happier and less dark in some ways
Jeff Buckley - live at sin-e
excellent supurb..of course ;-)
a hour 2 live gig in a cafe somewhere in new york called sin-e.
you get to hear what kind of a set he creates, how he jokes in-between songs, and really makes the audience feel like they are part of Jeff's little secret.
very good, of course I would recommend just about anything in Jeff's short back catalogue.
I still have a lot to learn from this man, listening to this album makes me want to do some live solo acoustic gigs
the cure - greatest hits
I like the cure, I listen to this and I love the base line and guitar parts, and in an odd way his voice.
I guess really they are just great songs...
love song track 11 on the acoustic cd with this album, is so good., I'm sure it would be good to cover! :-)
and im sure ive heard someone else cover it.
anyway, yeah great stuff!! need to buy some of the original albums, can anyone recommend which one to get? mailto:blizz4rd@angelfire.com
yeah yeah yeahs - fever to tell
so so so good imho!
the best 'loud' music I have really warmed to.
it reminds me of early p j Harvey in some ways, great music for making you want to jump up and down and stuff
and the arrangement and different parts all stuck together, is very interesting and I'm very impressed.
I had only heard the first single and then maps, and didn't expect the album to be so good.
the maps video makes me cry every time.
if you like l7 p j Harvey or loud girls with loud guitars I recommend this ;-)
hot hot heat - make up the breakdown
again very good, LOVE bandages song. the album is a mix of ok and good songs, not so over all good as yeah yeah yeahs,
but I think overall still a good album, with plenty more than just bandages worth a listen.
p.s. apart from hives and strokes (hive not really counting) yeah yeah yeahs ans hot hot heat have to be the first albums of 'this retro' thing going on that I have bought.
Martina toply bird - quixotic
VERY good, such a mix of stuff, some gospel sounding, some dirty guitars pj Harvey sounding songs, some quite gentle tracks, some songs that sound like Natalie imbrulga should be singing.
a good mix of styles that most people should be able to appricate..
I'm not going to link all of those, go use google or amazon :-P
that is all for now..
now to shower, play guitar, maybe work on another comic or play some soul calibur ;-)
it's Thursday, not that long before I need to head into London to see Maria for tonight
I've slept in a lot this morning, feels good to do, but I also feel I've wasted half the day, still not feeling great really
still sporting a cold :-(
and now my mum has gone out and I'm home alone I really not too sure what to do with myself.
well, a big THANK YOU to everyone who made it for my fathers funeral yesterday, there was such a big turn out people filled the upstairs of the church AND people were still standing.
it really shows what an impression he made on people
here is the order of service if you are interested, it includes a few things that weren't read on the day. it's only a text file at the moment, but if i get a chance i will try to compress the 2mb full version!
of course everything seems trivia when compared to things like this,
but ive bought a fair amount of music over last two months and thought it was time I shared and recommended
muse - absolution
good stuff, I thought I might have had enough of muse, as its starting to sound the same,
which I guess it is...but it's still good ;-)
some very nice riffs, which I would like to be fused more into the songs, rather than 'ok now we play the riff a few times'
but anyway overall still have a lot of talent and is interesting, got a feeling muse might be around to stay
uncle - never never land
more 'dancy' beats than previous albums I have got, but is still good.
haven't really looked into it, but it seems like uncle has worked with one guy this time, rather than a lot of different famous people
I could be wrong of course.
anyway, is good, not as good as last album really. happier and less dark in some ways
Jeff Buckley - live at sin-e
excellent supurb..of course ;-)
a hour 2 live gig in a cafe somewhere in new york called sin-e.
you get to hear what kind of a set he creates, how he jokes in-between songs, and really makes the audience feel like they are part of Jeff's little secret.
very good, of course I would recommend just about anything in Jeff's short back catalogue.
I still have a lot to learn from this man, listening to this album makes me want to do some live solo acoustic gigs
the cure - greatest hits
I like the cure, I listen to this and I love the base line and guitar parts, and in an odd way his voice.
I guess really they are just great songs...
love song track 11 on the acoustic cd with this album, is so good., I'm sure it would be good to cover! :-)
and im sure ive heard someone else cover it.
anyway, yeah great stuff!! need to buy some of the original albums, can anyone recommend which one to get? mailto:blizz4rd@angelfire.com
yeah yeah yeahs - fever to tell
so so so good imho!
the best 'loud' music I have really warmed to.
it reminds me of early p j Harvey in some ways, great music for making you want to jump up and down and stuff
and the arrangement and different parts all stuck together, is very interesting and I'm very impressed.
I had only heard the first single and then maps, and didn't expect the album to be so good.
the maps video makes me cry every time.
if you like l7 p j Harvey or loud girls with loud guitars I recommend this ;-)
hot hot heat - make up the breakdown
again very good, LOVE bandages song. the album is a mix of ok and good songs, not so over all good as yeah yeah yeahs,
but I think overall still a good album, with plenty more than just bandages worth a listen.
p.s. apart from hives and strokes (hive not really counting) yeah yeah yeahs ans hot hot heat have to be the first albums of 'this retro' thing going on that I have bought.
Martina toply bird - quixotic
VERY good, such a mix of stuff, some gospel sounding, some dirty guitars pj Harvey sounding songs, some quite gentle tracks, some songs that sound like Natalie imbrulga should be singing.
a good mix of styles that most people should be able to appricate..
I'm not going to link all of those, go use google or amazon :-P
that is all for now..
now to shower, play guitar, maybe work on another comic or play some soul calibur ;-)
