B|*ZZ4rD

had a bit of a cold last few days, feeling better today
but feeling crappy in other ways :-(
feeling bit dark and pointless
done a fair bit today, but never feels enough, all feels a bit pointless and hard to start anything...

anyway, should be back to work tomorrow, which im sure will be better for me than sitting around at home..
but doesnt really feel like it at the moment..

i think partly my dads death has made some things seem very pointless,
working where i do is one of them..

but working keeps me sane..
so what am i to do.

also ive noticed ive been a bit more sensive over a few things of late, this is because its getting close to my birthday on saturday...
not the usual oh i hate getting old problem, but more i want things done my way..
i always seem to get like this around my b day...
is odd, but i still cant understand some peoples choices of late..
anyway, im sure ill just sulk about it...

ok, so finally got around to putting up some new songs and poems..
a good mix of stuff here:

with a crown
this love
i can't explain
metal box
sword is juctice
not job here


and ill tell you what is also annoying about being ill, is not being able to sing with a soar throat when you know it will make you feel better! :-(