B|*ZZ4rD

hard to know how to even begin this.

it's now Tuesday.

I have been off work today and yesterday and will be for the foreseeable future,
since my dad has taken a turn for the worst.

he is slipping in and out of sleep, and when he is awake he cannot speak, he can barely mumble.
we got a little more out of him today, as he roughly said yes and no to a few things, and nodded his head.
but more and more he is in and out of sleep and not really responding to us.

the doctors give him 24-28 hours to live, at best.

I still can't really believe this is happening.

when I look into his eyes I see how he was, and wonder how this can be in any way fair or right.
surely many bad men deserve to die, so why him? a good man, and great father.
why now? what purpose does this serve?!

my only comfort is he has made his peace with God and Jesus and I believe at the very least he will be going to the right place when he dies.

so now we wait, and try to make him as comfortable as possible.